I’m coming to see this string of past lives as being a bit of a mess.
Too many attachments to the wrong things. I keep setting myself up and making myself miserable.
I’ve gotten all I can out of therapy. That’s ad-hoc relief. I’m ready to consider a new path for unraveling this Gordian knot. I haven’t really put any serious effort or energy into Buddhism but that seems to be the only thing that makes sense any more. It’s time I gave it a shot. Emotionally I’m not so bad, but I look at the past few lives I’ve lived and I see so many bad patterns that are ruining things for the long term.