At this point, I have remembered four past lives in enough detail to place geographically, plus had tentative hints about 3 or 4 more; of these I know the names of two, one had no name, and my memories of having been John are actually the most developed and vivid to date even though that’s the second oldest life I remember in significant detail.
It isn’t a silly question. I really would like to know why I’ve remembered enough detail to know names. Why do I know that on May 24, 1915 I was somewhere between Railway Wood and the Menin Road scared out of my mind? Why do I remember an inconsequential life in mid-20th century California? And why would I remember a life where I wasn’t human at all?
If some god wants something special of me, why aren’t they saying so?
If this is some kind of deception by evil, to what end? It isn’t like I was a solid monotheist to begin with and I’m still kind of agnostic, so if they’re trying to “steal me from God” it’s kind of a pointless effort because I still don’t know what god I could have been stolen from.
If this is an early stage of enlightenment, then how did I manage that while living in such an unenlightened way?
If this is meant to prepare me for the future, why is it sending me further back into a past that I know I can never recover?
If this is insanity, why am I able to confirm details with firsthand sources?
If this is simply Karma, how exactly do I interpret where I am in this life in the context of what I know about my previous lives? Just when I think I have that one pinned down, something new comes up that kind of shakes up my tentative bid to link Karma of any sort to it decisively.
If I’m some sort of prophet, how does one go about knowing they’re a prophet? And to which god? I would think knowing the name of the deity who chose you as a mouthpiece would be a pretty important part of being a prophet, right?
It makes no sense.
I’m asking my readers to weigh in on this. I know I have readers from many backgrounds and I’m really interested in a variety of opinions. I hadn’t had much luck finding people who are “safe” to talk to locally.
Please weigh in. Comments are welcome and appreciated.