After it became clear in a recent entry that I was still unsure about my beliefs, I had to stop and think about what my beliefs really were.
It seems that over the years I’ve actually become quite comfortable as a Gnostic syncretist with my own very personal pattern of beliefs and practices that would never fit any mold.
That said, I do seem to take a lot from Christian Gnosticism and Hermeticism. If I allow myself to pick and choose the pieces of various Gnostic systems, my beliefs begin to resemble those of the Rosicrucians and the Cathars though I also draw a great deal more directly from Buddhism.
I could do worse than to give fuller trust in this hybrid strain of Gnosticism I follow, and focus on my own life and growth before I try to reach out to others. I feel like it has helped bring some focus to my life and given me a tool to integrate some strange things that have happened to me with a sort of freedom of interpretation that most religions don’t offer.
Even if I don’t intend to lead others, I think I’ve found a very real spiritual affinity here, one that goes back perhaps multiple lifetimes. I’ll give it a go. I’ll make the leap and call myself a Gnostic rather than simply treating Gnosticism as an “interest.”